importance

I feel like I want to tell you everything, like I don’t know who else to tell when I get good news, or even bad news. It’s difficult for me to open up to people, always has been, that’s why I’ve been a writer all my life, when my life gets exciting or emotional or sad I write, it’s my therapy I guess, how I get it out, with our actually getting it out I guess. But some how I feel satisfied after writing about it, but it’s still not the same as talking to you, and telling you everything. When you go to the pre deployed meetings, they tell you over and over again, tell them what you have too, don’t try and worry them with things that are happening at home because they have enough to worry about where they are as is and don’t need to be worrying about things back home… YEAH.. so I totally get this trust me it makes sense. But on my side, this is hard because what’s important and what’s not important? And if I don’t tell him everything will he be upset with me in the future about something I didn’t tell him? I mean where do you draw the line. Do I tell you our son has been throwing up for 8 days? I don’t know cause there’s nothing I or can do about it, your not here, so why concern you with his illness. But WHAT IF it gets worse, or he ends up in the hospital, then he’s going to wonder why I didn’t tell him. I mean I’m stumped because I wanna tell you, everything, I guess I’m just used to telling you every little thing, good or bad, and just venting to you about it, every night, god I miss that. I guess I got 8 more months to try and figure out what’s important and what’s not…