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Tonight is the first night I’ve gone to the grocery store alone in almost 5 months. I order online, it’s always been easier with 2 kids to just get it delivered. Tonight, the kids are with grandma, and I’m getting groceries in the store, by myself, it feels like the first time I’ve finally hadContinue reading “Missing the little things..”

Today, I feel like crap, I have not felt so sick in a long time, so I decided to go in and see my primary doctor to see if he could help me with some of the flu symptoms I have been having. He went over everything with me, and well he was looking overContinue reading “The struggle.”

People always ask you, what is it like to be on the other side, be the person that stays home and “watches over things” well your husband or wife is away for so long. I don’t think people ever truly think about what that person has to go through on a day to day bases,Continue reading “I just cant.”

I figure, every once in awhile it’s gotta just be ok, to just not be ok. It’s ok to cry every once in awhile, and it’s ok to leave that laundry tell tomorrow, it’s ok to not wash the dishes tell morning or pick up the toys. Some times you just gotta be ok withContinue reading “It’s ok.. to not be ok..”

I hate those days where you don’t feel yourself, in all honestly you just need a break, but you know you’ll never get one. Every time I feel like I try to relax or just sit down for a minute something happens. I try and try and try and feel like I keep failing, overContinue reading “do the bad days ever get better?”

Do you ever think about the last time you saw someone? What you were thinking about or what you where doing… I honestly do sometimes.. think about it i mean, I wonder if those lasat moments together where good enough, if they where ok.. My mind works funny like that, always thinking the worst, imContinue reading “The last time..”

Its hard to put yourself out there again, its hard to show yourself to the world, kind of like your starting over, but not really.. you do everything together and you go out together, so doing it alone isn’t fun.. Going to events with all your couple friends almost makes you feel more alone thenContinue reading “Getting out there.. or not”

this song… love the lyrics Hey homecoming queen Why do you lie When somebody’s mean? Where do you hide? Do people assume You’re always alright? Been so good at smiling Most of your lifeLook damn good in the dress Zipping up the mess Dancing with your best foot forward Does it get hard To have to play the part? Nobody’s feeling sorry for yaBut what if IContinue reading “homecoming queen- by kelsea ballerini”

I’ll never forgot the first time she said it, the first time she said I hate you. I ran into the other room and balled. I wasn’t expecting something like that to be so painful, so harmful coming from her little mouth, I was shocked that those 3 little words could even hurt as muchContinue reading

I love my husband, I completely 100% support his career choices. Whatever he wants to do that makes him happy i support him. I know he supports me too, he pushes me to do what i love, and I love that about him, i know having a daycare in our house cant easy for him,Continue reading “being alone for the holidays.”