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I’ve never been open with my writing before. Makes me feel exposed, like letting people get to know me, truly know me for some reason always scared the hell out of me. Now, I honestly have no idea why I don’t feel that way anymore? Maybe I want to know that being alone, doesn’t last,Continue reading “Open”

I’m still trying to figure out the whole carrying a child for 9 months, having a baby, then feeling completely like a different person. It’s like I’m watching someone else in my body. I’ve talked to my doctor, I’ve talked to my pregnancy doctor I saw a specialist they all say I struggle with postpartumContinue reading “anxiety”

I hate attention, I hate self pity. I hate when people look at you and don’t know what to say or how to react. That’s why I am the way I am. I hold things in, I cry in the shower or in the dark or when no one is around. I don’t share howContinue reading “everything myself”

Sometimes I wonder what you think, I wonder what’s going on in that little mind. It used to just be me and you, “forever and always” we say. We used to do everything together, play princesses go to the park, go to target, always just me and you. These where “our” things that we didContinue reading “Dear baby girl..”

I’m driving home from thanksgiving dinner, and it’s kinda like it just hit me, I wish we where going shopping together, drinking coffee too late, disagreeing about what a need and want is.. isn’t it funny how all the things that make me so upset at you sometimes are the things I end up missingContinue reading “You should be here.”

I was at Target tonight, I had a little déjà vu, when me and my husband where I think 17, it was our first “Black Friday” together, it was also our first all nighter alone I think. Neither of us had any money, and neither of us wanted anything that I could remember anyways.. weContinue reading “Getting closer..”

You know how there’s only so much you can take in a day? Like when that last thing hits you that just makes you break down. Tonight, like every night, I was putting my lil man to sleep, I asked my daughter to be quiet for a few minutes so I could get him toContinue reading “mommy’s trying baby girl”

You ever hear a song come on the radio, a older one, that you’ve probably Hurd a million times before but when you’ve Hurd it before it didn’t mean anything to you because you didn’t relate, than all the sudden it hits you.. like damn that song is deep.. I was listening to the radioContinue reading “You should be here..”