I hate those days where you don’t feel yourself, in all honestly you just need a break, but you know you’ll never get one. Every time I feel like I try to relax or just sit down for a minute something happens. I try and try and try and feel like I keep failing, over and over again. I miss my husband, I miss having that person that gives you a break, even when you don’t need it. Its like being home, having to do everything all the time there is not enough time in the day to get done what needs to get done because its physically impossible to do it all as one person. How do you beat that?
I keep thinking about getting some one on one time with my daughter, I miss it just being me and her, but she’s been so I don’t know, acting out lately I guess you could say, yesterday, she told me she hated me maybe 20 times, and I know shes saying it because she wants to get some kind of reaction out of me but honestly after hearing it so many times in one day it just breaks me down, makes me wonder if Im not doing a good job at being a parent. im used to having that physical support of a spouse to tell me im doing ok, and that she doesn’t mean it and that everything will be ok, but I don’t have that right now, and I know I wont have that for a long time so how do I get through days like this? how do you keep pushing when all you really want to do is curl up in a ball by yourself and cry?
Military wife just breathe 