Getting out there.. or not

Its hard to put yourself out there again, its hard to show yourself to the world, kind of like your starting over, but not really.. you do everything together and you go out together, so doing it alone isn’t fun.. Going to events with all your couple friends almost makes you feel more alone then ever, sometimes its almost easier to stay home because at least at home you feel less alone than when you do when you go out in public. I don’t know maybe its just me? I don’t really socialize very much since he left, sometimes it makes it easier to keep to yourself.. I know I shouldn’t but how do you really put yourself out there again when your too tired to even take a shower at night after cleaning house making supper and bathing and putting the kids to bed? All I want to do after that is go to bed myself..